4:46 p.m. - Tuesday, Mar. 16, 2004
Hey little sister who's the only one...
Hey y'all, I'm back. I missed you tons and tons my pretties...
Unfortunately my first entry in ages will be brief, as I have a bunch of research I'm supposed to be doing right now, and I've put it off way too long already.
Not so much to tell anyway, life has pretty much been same same. Been seeing some shows, been jamming some, volunteering, school, etc.
I may get married...that's new I guess.
Er, I sort of want to say yes, but I'm hella scared. Like, I'll think about it, and sketch my dress, all my bride's maids dresses, and Jules's suit (all 1920's inspired), plan the menu, and the honeymoon, and I'll be happy as a clam. But then I remember its not all just a party, I'd really be, *gulp*, m-a-r-r-i-e-d. Someone's wife? Its like I have an allergic reaction, really, I practically break out in hives.
Its always sort of been my *thing*, you know, like, not getting married, not wanting to get married, riot grrl debauchery, never let them pin you down, bullshit, etc. And like, as silly as I know it is intellectually, I almost feel I owe it to K.Hannah, and my entire generation, to remain unhitched. Stupid, its stupid, I mean, what about K.Gordon, right? Plus, no one really cares, I know - I just feel like being a bride, and an effing wife for that matter, would embarrass me to death.
But like, dude, the boy is my rock, he's my best friend, he never ever ever tries to take even an ounce of my independence away, and really nothing would change in the way we live. I don't even have to move in with him if I don't want to, we already established that. And damn, my folks would TOTALLY send us on some rad trip, wherever we wanted to go! I reallly need a trip. I really want to spend a month in Cuba, or Thailand, or some shit. Plus, then Jules would be a Canadian citizen and not pay through the foreskin for school, dig. Those are big pluses!
Opinions anyone? Ideas, pretty words, sagely advice? Gimme.
